甜蜜的季節已到了

夜晚回家的路令人有特別的感覺。也許夜深人靜，加上一點秋意的晚上，獨個兒在街上特別讓人想起一些人和事，不論是高興的還是凄涼的，都讓人心裡忐忑不安。今晚回家的時候感覺很特別，忽然間，秋天的來臨好像有點陌生，一陣秋風迎面的感覺很新奇，對於天氣開始轉冷感到有點緊張。一年前的秋天是我找到陽光的日子，有Sun一起，所有的事物都變得新奇美好，一切都特別起來。事隔一年，大家都有了默契，但秋天對於我來說仍然特別。今晚在街上感到特別涼，讓我意識到這個甜蜜的季節已到了。

Today I have a gathering in my ex-colleague's home. It's full of "Hello Kitty". Cupboards, walls, doors, whatever you can think of is Hello Kitty! I think she's one of the happiest women in this world, with a lovely family and a loved husband. Having been to several wedding feasts and knowing that there are more coming (Gavin is getting married soon !!!), I start to think of it seriously. Actually it is not an out of a sudden's thought. Ever since I have been working in my new job, I realise that time is really limited for being with my family and also the one I loved. I started to feel exhausted to go out after 'a hard day's work'. I think if I get married, I can stay with my sun for a longer time in a more comfortable environment inside our cosy 'home'. Then it just come with all the hearing of everyone's getting married sooner or later, it seems marriage has become one of the haunted ideas in my mind recently. However, as the eldest child in a young family, my responsibility is not that small. Though I am not the one who raise the family, I believe if I were missing in the physical family after getting married, my parents would miss me so badly that I feel it is like hurting them in acts. My brothers are too young to be mature enough to take care of my parents. I feel it's a dilema that on the one hand, I really hope to stay for the rest of my life with sun, but on the other hand, I don't want to leave my home. Afterall, it's talking about balance again. The idea of having all things balance in the traditional chinese thinking is always the wisest as it is the highest state if someone can get things balanced. I wonder if it's my silly thoughts only, but I really feel it so deeply at this time of my life that I think I still can't find a way out. ~.~

Recently I have heard a lot about him and there are too much being asked, I really don't know how to answer, should I make an announcement? Not feeling good about it really ~.~

What is the most popular things among your friends?

Yesterday went out for a restaurant visit because of a project of my team member. My boss so happened to ask " What is the most popular things among your friends? ". What a good question and how poor I am to give the answer. It's not a matter of how difficult to find a popular thing, actually it's difficult to sort out which friends I should relate to, who are really my friends? Friend itself is an important asset as a lifelong support and spiritual sharing, but as you grow up, personalities of every person start to evolve or go extremes for personal wants and life targets. For me, I am sort of splitting my personalities for private life and general social life. My personality in the private life part seems never grow much to get with the pace of others, the gap between mine and my 'used to be' friends are getting larger, and my private own self can no longer share spiritually with them. Well, I have no clues for how to keep my friends 'alive' in my circle and perhaps I should get a bit faster to chase behind them.

Luckily I have Sun.

最重要的情感 --- 思念

雖然今天只是在新公司工作的第四天，但已經忙得不得了。我的工作分兩大部份，一是負責Mobile Content，另一是負責公司網站發展及其他類型的工司投資包括電視遊戲，網上遊戲，甚至是Venture Capital的投資項目等等等等。第一天的工作就是要了解第一部份的工作，接手及完成一些比較緊急的事務。第三天就是第二部份的交接。而今天就跟一家合作伙伴開會。每天都精神緊張，畢竟剛接手新的工作不想有所差錯。得到Sun的提點，我明白這段時間的表現對我來說是非常重要的，我不想錯過任何機會，希望可以比以前做好一點。唯一擔心的是私人時間少了，不能常常與Sun見面，很是掛念。


這是公司為我準備的工作桌，我不特別喜歡這些characters, 不過看見這些色彩繽紛的文具總為悶納的工作加添一點情趣吧!

在網上找到以下的一段文字，可能大家都從網上看過，不過我還是想在此分享一下 :

當你愛上對方時，應該會有這九種情感，才能算是一個真的愛情，最起碼，你應該捫心自問，將來是否有可能培養出這樣的情感來，才能確保你擁有一個真的愛情。

●（一）生理上的性衝動：
當我們對一位異性產生興趣或愛上某個異性時，希彼此有身體上的接觸。在真實的愛情生活裡，這種慾望是永遠存在的。性衝動並不單單只是性交行為，它還包含了許多其它親密的身體上接觸，譬如牽手、擁抱等等，這種情感會永遠都存在愛人的心裡。

●（二）美麗的感覺：
在有愛情的時候，我們會覺得對方最好看，即使有別的異性比你所愛的對象好看，但對你而言，他才是最好看的，而且是別人無法相比的。

●（三）親愛的感覺：
當你真正愛上一個人，你會有一種很親切的感覺，他讓你覺得很舒服，你可以信任他、依靠他。他像是一個親密的家人，甚至可以說，比一個家人更親密，這是親密加上一種溫馨的感覺，就是親愛的感覺。在這愛情國度裡，他不會挑剔你的瑕疵， 因為他願意包容你所有的缺點。

●（四）羨慕及尊敬的感覺：
一個健康的愛情關係，應當有以對方為榮的感覺，我們會去欣賞對方內在和外在的條件和優點。 而且對方也處處以我們為榮。如果我們能有這種感覺，不論他是成功或失敗， 都會使我們欣賞他的才華。

●（五）讚許的愛情：
當相愛的時候，我們喜歡誇獎對方，而且不僅是欣賞而已，還喜歡對他人誇獎對方，從誇獎對方的熱誠之中，我們可以因此感到無比的快樂。

●（六）受到尊重的自尊：
一個健康的愛情關係，可以提高一個人的自尊心。讓對方感覺到活得更有價值， 因為愛情使你覺得你有無人可比的獨特性，雖然你有優點也有缺點， 但是你的獨特性使你受到無比的尊重，生命因此而有了價值。

●（七）佔有慾：
愛情是絕對獨佔的，不能與人分享親密的男女關係。所以需要以結婚來持續一份愛情，在結婚時彼此相約相許。因此在真實愛情裡，互許諾忠誠是必要的。

●（八）行動自由：
如果個人有正當的理由，他行動的自由一定要受到尊重，才不會破壞兩人之間的愛情關係。

●（九）深重的同情心：
我們對深愛的人常會有憐惜的感情，經常會為對方考慮，如果對方受到挫折，我們會非常願意與他分擔痛苦和挫折，把對方的苦當作自己的苦難一樣，或者更勝於自己的苦難，因為我們願意為對方而犧牲自己的利益。

對於以上的所說的，我絕對同意，也有同感，但卻不明白為可沒有包括最重要的情感 --- 思念。我認為應加上 （十）思念之情。畢竟愛一個人必然會有牽腸掛肚的感覺，不管他／她已在身旁，總會有一點很牽掛，很想念的感覺。不過是否完善的愛情才有以上的九種感覺，當然不是，但對我而言，我以有以上十種了。^^ 對嗎，Sun?

前幾天在網上看的一個'山羊座與巨蟹座的故事"，從來也沒想過會有這樣的一個故事。可惜網站的內容已不見了。記憶中，故事提及 Capricorn與 Cancer 是剛好相反的，大家還記得Tropic of Capricorn和Tropic of Cancer 嗎? 兩條線在地球上從來都沒有相遇的機會，一南一北，故事的細節忘記了，卻記得作者說正因為大家的不同，卻互補不足，互相了解。我不知道這個故事的出處，也找不到其他網站有同一個記載，不過還是覺得有趣。

有點累，下次再分享。

我的生活是淡淡的

今天的午飯時間和Carmen一起渡過。由於我還是放著悠長假期，所以早了一點到達約好的地方。左顧右盼地等著她的來臨，卻忽然眼前一亮，Carmen留著長長的卷髮，瘦了點，比起上一次到她家拜訪的時候漂亮多，^^ 我想她不用擔心她的憂慮吧!! ^^ 她依舊如以前一樣，見面時笑臉迎人，給人很舒服的感覺，很高興她找到一份滿意的工作，始終 '滿意' 還是得高難度的呢!! 我不知道我的新公司會是怎樣呢? 跟一個洋化的日本人工作會是怎樣呢? 看了得多新公司的資料，看了她的歷史，發跡史，不其然心裡有點害怕，害怕自己做不來，辜負了她們對我的期望，也從各樣的資料中得知公司其實也存有不少危機。^^ 究竟新工作會是怎樣，下星期一便會揭盅，先為自己打打氣!! 加油加油!!!

Carmen說我的生活是淡淡的，跟她的起伏不定的生活很大對比。是的，我總給人一種淡淡的，平靜的感覺，(當然她們都沒有見識過我的脾氣, Sun會很同意的)我想是因為我不懂好好的表達自己的情感，自己身邊發生的事也只有很親近的人才會分享吧。Carmen這客觀的一句說話讓我在回家的路上想了良久，也許正因為給人這樣的感覺，才不夠說服力，也許不夠剛強，也不懂告訴別人自己的感想與經歷。不過，想起來，我也不覺得我的前10年不精采，至少也參與過有意義的事，與好友分享過簡單快樂的時光，儘管沒有像煙花璀璨的事，但有平靜而讓人回味的回憶，也有叫人心痛的經歷。到底我所追求的始終是簡單的快樂，我不要用之不盡的財富，也不要什麼名氣威風，只要跟喜歡的人，和家人開心的生活就夠了。我想我的太陽跟我的想法也是一樣 ^^


最近家裡來了新鄰居，可怕得很! 一群大蜜蜂竟然在我媽房的窗台外築了個蜂巢。明天早上會有人來把它清除，希望可怕不要讓那些可怕的東西走進屋內就好啦~!!!!!

下星期開始投入工作

今日好relaxed，一早同媽咪搵公公婆婆飲茶。佢地雖然年老，好似媽咪咁講，佢地一個BB班，一個高班，但係就互相扶持，互相照顧，好希望第時我同Sun可以好似佢地咁好，仲有孝順0既仔女同孫仔陪下飲茶就好啦 (咁早發夢~.€ 十劃都未有一撇!)
之後去0左搵 Sun食lunch ，^^ 終於有時間買0左d 野食俾佢放0係公司，希望Sun唔會餓親啦^^

去0左我書局買左4本書，希望可以返工之前睇哂其中兩本。

呢個holiday 同屋企人相處耐0左，知道爸爸真係好辛苦，工作壓力大之餘仲要不停進修，佢係我最尊敬0既榜樣。仲有媽咪，佢真係好錫我地，我都要好好對佢。

下個星期開始就要投入工作，多加努力.... !

5th day of the long long vacation

Coming to the 5th day of the long long vacation, feeling so relaxed and happy to have my eyes open every morning, knowing that the rest of the day is left for my planning and rest, there is no need to rush for anything. Everyday I wake up early and make a morning call to my sun, before 9, I'll wake up and occassionally go swimming with mom. I am now trying best to improve my posture for breast stroke as what my sun has taught me. I observe a lot on people around me to see how I can coordinate my hand and leg movements better. I also try slowing down my pace so that I can have more time to think and react. It seems the progress is quite good but I still need more practices on it. My parents did come with me once to swim and they just look after me like I was just a kid! Whenever I swam away myself, my mom will follow me and once she found I am out of sight, she'll fetch my dad to look up for me. That's funny, is it an unbeatable fact that all parents treat their children as little kids no matter they are grown up or not? Or am I behaving like a kid and not mature enough? I hope it is the first case :P

Having the free time at home, I go through my sun's homepage again word by word and it seems I have walked through the years before I knew him. It is funny to read his diary and find that the tone he used or content he wrote has also grown up as time passes. Diary, no matter it is an online or a written one, is a magical tool for us to walk through the life, to revive the journey and allow imagination. No matter it is about sad or happy things, when you read it again, you'll smile for it.

Went to see the movie (超級無敵掌門狗之世紀大騙兔) yesterday. The story is a simple one which is an amusing one for kids. Personally I like it very much because the characters are lovely and I myself are specially fond of animation made by real figures, that's why I like watching sesame street very much when I was small, I can still remember it was shown at 4:00pm every day and ended at 6:00pm. I think the first scene of the movie attracts me most because it showed a picture taken when Gromit was 1 year old, he was so so cute and lovely ^^

The next movie I am waiting for is Tim Burton's Corpse Bride. I am again attracted by the wonderful figures and characters in the movie and I hope it won't let me down.

Watching TV in the morning, I found that TVB is showing "Meteor's Garden II", I don't quite like this serie as it deviates from the first serie too much, the appearance of 葉莎 doesn't make the serie look more appealing, it just destroys the romantic feeling of the drama series. Afterall, the second serie is written by Taiwan writters but not the original Japanese Author, therefore the quality can deviates a lot!

^^ Currently I am reading a very useful book teaching how to persuade others. I think some of my friends are really genius in that, they can always get what they want because they are just not that considerate. In the book, it said we shouldn't be bounded by the rules long planted in our minds. Perhaps my mom is just a too caring and considerate person, I was brought up along with this value and so persuasion is far in a lower value than compromisation. Now, I have noted the drawback of it, also I know that in some circumstances, compromisation is not a way out. The book teaches me a lot and I would try my best to improve my skills. I think perhaps the next job does impose some pressure on me and I really hope I can deliver the best performance and improve my analytical skills for it, I won't lose !

Carmen, it seems I can't leave comment due to some technical failure in your blog, please don't feel lonely and sad ! You got a lot of friends and please count me in as well! ^^ Let's meet next week!! Wanna share from you about your new job, it must be challenging!

Spent a lot recently! Today is only the beginning of the month, I got little money left again! Can anyone teach me how to manage my money????

終於又出現返啦

沈寂了一陣子0既Bruisy ，終於又出現返啦。其實冇特別0既原因，原本好想快d將幾個禮拜以來努力去做0既網頁，包括一個網上日記公諸於世，不過正因為太過忙碌，而又要求太高，遲遲未做好。不過0係呢幾個禮拜又實在發生太多野，所以要0係到抒發一下！(無錯，Carmen，可能我同你都有d相同:p)

我0既Last Day實在過得好開心，雖然同上一份工一樣忙到最後一刻，不過都開心自己到最後一刻都仲有價值。我諗唔係我0既偏見，亦都唔係因為我都係IT出身至咁講，我都係覺得 IT人係最有人情味既。以前做研究，center d 人雖然0係人地眼中係怪，但係都好有人情味。到呢間公司，最有人情味，會farewell我０既都只有Technical Team０既人，至少，會問候下我而唔係因為八卦０既都係得佢地，所以臨走前一晚同佢地食０既晚飯真係好開心，好希望可以keep 住份friendship。點講都好，對呢間公司0既人都已經徹底失望，離開係好好0既選擇，開心0既同時，只係擔心某d 自以為是0既一撮人以咁0既態度做事，遲早碰釘。

呢排成日都遇返好多以前相識0既人，最好笑就係上日文對策班竟然見返我以前教ecom-icom 0既學生! 點解會記得佢地? 緊係記得啦，我岩岩第一份0係大學0既job 就係教佢地呢班mature student，當時都好驚做唔來，佢地又咁岩係第一個sem，大家都咁緊張，印象特別深。之後到第二份0係大學0既job ，又教返佢地，不過就係最後一個sem，大家都唔同哂，0係佢地身上我學會乜野係自強不息，做IT 已經係勁辛苦，仲要晚晚返到10點至走，好佩服佢地。諗起而家我返三晚堂都已經覺得好攰，其實好唔應該。

距離返新工0既日子有兩個禮拜，本來好想去旅行，出去走走，但係實在冇$$ ~.~ 諗返0係呢間公司到一仙都儲唔到，之前轉工仲可以同noona 去korea 玩，我真係要努力d 啦!

今晚待續