I doubt, I don't bother to

It's always a difficult faculty of knowledge to manage good relationships. Between lovers, between friends, and most of all, to be peaceful with family. With love is not sufficient, there must be understanding, communication and patience. I think I am still a novice learner.

Even I am not a princess, I don't regard myself as a witch, but anyway, I haven't thought I am any princess at all at any time. Sometimes it is awful to see things being positioned in such playful manner. I have kept my mouth shut at all time. Please don't hurt me anymore by all means at all time even it is not being done with intentions. Thank you.

I think I don't care about what others think, and even don't care about being misunderstood. Yet, it does hurt. Should everything be cleared up ? I doubt. I don't bother to.

同你一齊幾時都咁開心

又係時候update下個blog啦。星期五晚去左學整蛋糕，今次係栗子mousse朱古力包，聽個名好怪，其他係栗子mousse蛋糕，用朱古力包住咁，其實都幾靚，我覺得都幾好食吖，不過如果0係屋企整就麻煩d，我諗都係整返正常既蛋糕會易d。一齊學整蛋糕既有我既同事，仲有同事既朋友。同事既朋友話一睇就覺得我係教書既，哈哈，我唔係教書架，你估錯啦!!

琴日返左去學校fun fair，唔係見返好多先生，咁多次想見下既Mr. Philip Lee都見唔到，不過見返預科教biology既Mrs. Lee，佢話好記得我。點解? 佢話每次disect老鼠都會記得我，因為我有次整到成手四隻手指都流哂血，估唔到佢咁記得:p 見到Ms. To，佢話要搵返我地返黎幫手做alumni d 野，我一口答應左，不過我可以做d 乜呢? Ms. To仲話有Mentorship Programme，我就話我唔夠experience 做，佢就話我地係唔夠老做 je.. haa.... 仲記得之前既補習都係佢介紹既。 見到Ms. Shirley Li, 佢同以前都係一樣，做老師係咪唔會老既呢?? 佢記得我同小露露個名，仲係冇調亂，好開心^^ 仲有Ms. Sara Yiu, 佢依然係咁靚，咁斯文，我地同佢傾得耐d，仲影左相。Mr. Oliver最攪笑，佢話我幫過佢做drama，但係又講錯個drama 名，我話我係做Antigone ，佢就好surprised 咁問我係做邊個角色，我話係sound effect -,- 佢就即刻去搵返本場刊黎睇，我個樣都冇乜變過吖，佢仲要搵下係邊個，俾佢激死!!!!!! 今年一定要去睇drama，約定你呀 ^^

好耐冇唱k.. 好開心同小露露唱左三個幾鐘頭，同你一齊幾時都咁開心，仲有你呀，好開心你咁趕都黎^^，你唱得好好聽喎!!!!!

^^ 今日要俾心機讀哂d書先!!

有點累

今晚認識了一班幽默和親切的朋友。因為一些人為錯誤(包括我的大頭蝦病)而點了雙份的食物，幸好還勉強吃得下。你知道嗎，我從來只會叫人把吃不掉的食物剩下，不要勉強也從不會替人頂著吃的，你是第一個令我這樣做的人，而且還是第二次，你該覺得很榮幸...哈! 雖然我仍舊不多作聲，但一面吃，一面聽都很開心。^^ 原來只是大幾年的人的話題也可以這樣不同，真的不知道我和我的同學將來會否也談著同一樣的話題。哈.. 最不慣的就是我們沒有男同學，今晚還是很難想像各位以前一起上學的情況 ^^

Annie, 生日快樂呀，我會搵你。原來我都大你差唔多成年。

今天工作的時候忽然收到教授的一個ICQ message，以為有事吩咐，原來是專程帶給我一個令我高興了片刻的消息。

忽然覺得有點不習慣這樣忙碌的生活，有點累。

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Feeling disappointed again. It is the second time I feel so disappointed about it. Perhaps I am too true to myself and others, I shouldn't have done that to people who don't regard me the same way in the first place. Having expectation does make ppl disappoint if it's not what we expect. However, I persist to expect and hope, I know that what I need is to learn to accept if the outcome isn't that satisfying as well as to work around it. Anyway... down...

Time is kinda in a rush. Two weeks left before the exam. I'll work hard. I won't let you down.

When I trust, I gain double. When I trust, I suffer half.

My computer has recovered halfly, so happy that I can use it to do the routine stuff that I used to do every night now. Thank you so much for fixing it for the whole afternoon. It's glad and sweet to see you concentrating by my side. Yes, others are right, you are attractive when you work with your full attention :P
Time heals, that's true for all, and it doesn't only apply to them, perhaps I have ignored myself as well. When encountering some points of life, heartache conquers and a sudden of sadness overwhelm. Luckily, I can revert to joy soon.
It's winter, I like the feeling of coldness with the shinning sun! Let me work hard for the exam first, after that, I can go out to play.. yeah!
Hey all St. Marians, remember the fun fair on 27 November 2004!
See you there..

When I trust, I gain double. When I trust, I suffer half. Thanks for teaching me about that.

心靈相通 & 想說, right?

簡簡單單

個電腦壞左咁耐，終於certified 左啦，唔知道仲可唔可以boot返部機copy返d 有用既野出黎。其實咁都好，好似一把火將所有野燒哂咁，除左可以毫冇保留咁將d垃圾清除之外，連以前唔捨得delete 既回憶都一次過徹底咁剷除。不過最可惜既應該係d 相，希望留得返。

呢排話忙其實又唔係真係咁忙，不過0係屋企既時間除左'訓'覺，一個禮拜可能24小時都冇。間房廿幾年黎都未試過好似而家咁亂。成張書檯都係半開既書同信，好多賬單，好凌亂。好想將d 野返整齊，希望今個禮拜會有時間。

情緒好唔穩定，雖然開心既時間比唔開心既時間明顯長好多，但係總會有好depressed既感覺。我諗我需要一d獨處既時間，好好咁諗清楚究竟發生乜野事。好羨慕 Carmen, 我記得上次你黎大學搵我食飯既時候同我講你一向都好清楚自己既感覺，我諗我而家就係學習緊點樣了解自己多d。哈，咁多年黎我只係習慣去適應同處理自己既情感，卻冇嘗試去了解原因，太可笑啦。

睇真個schedule，仲有兩個禮拜就考試啦。你成日話我唔溫書，其實我係習慣左0係最後既時間先衝既，畢竟我用黎考試既memory 有限之餘仲要係好short-term 0個隻，咁早讀既話，考試既時候就要用好耐時間先搵得返，邊夠時間做卷呀? haa.. 唔怪得我做野咁慢啦!!

好開心上個weekend 見返咁多個5E既同學。雖然好耐冇見，之前都有d 擔心大家冇野講，不過見返既感覺又好似返以前咁，好舒服，好慶幸大家雖然有唔同既工作，唔同既achievement，唔同既exposure，都可以保持返以前簡簡單單既感覺。Even我唔會講好多野，但係都好開心。
最開心就緊係可以同你一齊去啦 :p

一向大頭蝦既我再次俾左好多鑊我老細啦，呢排佢好都好忙，唔得閒理我，希望跟住落黎我唔好再咁唔小心啦。

好多謝露娜既照顧，0係我最唔返得屋企時候接濟我，haha.. 仲同我share 歌聲師妹既MTV(好難受呀!) thank you so much my lovely baby :P 有野送俾你，睇下幾時可以食餐飯。You know, I got so much to share with you, laughter and tears, joy and sadness. You are the only one that can share my naked mind you know?

Annie, can I have some update from you? haha.. I miss your news for such a long time. When can I see you?
Brenda, you know we have missed many dates already! Situations changed and we still can't meet. I miss your warm smile^^
Sherman, start your course research already? I am still that occupied, must find some time to get some information, time is getting short.
Cousins, I owe you all a date!

It's great to have bought three books yesterday. I guess the last time I bought leisure books was about half a year ago. I've gotta tidy up my bookshelf and get them a place to fit in. It's always enjoyable to read, it's like forgeting all the things around and live in another world. Wanna start with some novels, but so far, I can observe that my pickups are almost all history records or stories. Any suggestions(preferably not romantic stuff)?

Wanna see movie, it will be a good idea to go straight to the Broadway Cinema and see whatever showing in there.

Always meet you on the street Eric, how are you? Surprised? Yup, you don't need to guess, you are right and things are ok for both of us.

Something happened in office, it wasn't difficult to say such word, but it's difficult to do that in such situation.

Yes, you, I treasure you.

To lead a better life, I need my love to be here

聽返The Beatles 既後期作品發現原來都好好聽，以前一直只係聽佢地出道既歌﹐其實後期既都唔係首首都咁嘈既，不過就係John Lennon既歌有味道d，畢竟佢係比Paul McCartney 有藝術氣質。諗返細個成日想大個點樣，想做d 乜野，原來經過挫折，了解自己多d之後先發現想要既野原來好多時都係唔適合自己。而家學識搵自己最適合既野，而唔係一直認為係最好最想要既野。

越來越發現自己好唔適合自己既工作，原來簡單呢個字對我黎講係咁緊要......
今日玩左一個香薰瓶Tarot Card 占卜(其實都唔算係占卜，因為冇野講過) ... haha.. 又有d 講得幾岩喎，我係一個好忠於自己感覺但又唔會亂黎既人:p 唔知呢份堅持可以維持幾耐呢?

好煩惱呀 ~.~

Here There and Everywhere - The Beatles

To lead a better life, I need my love to be here

Here, making each day of the year
Changing my life with a wave of her hand
Nobody can deny that there's something there

There, running my hands through her hair
Both of us thinking how good it can be
Someone is speaking but she doesn't know he's there

I want her everywhere
And if she's beside me I know I need never care
But to love her is to meet her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share
Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

I want her everywhere
And if she's beside me I know I need never care
But to love her is to meet her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share
Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes and hoping I'm always there

To be there and everywhere
Here, there and everywhere