小呆獸 ...> 大呆獸

Finally got some time to drop a few lines about my recent life, my recent thoughts and feelings. Just finished two exams, one quite easy, the other not so. But that's fine, I just want good result for the easy one, a pass on the relatively not easy one :P hehe... I have spent three weekends and occassional nights on the revision, though I have sacrified my leisure time, it's quite enjoyable. I'll work hard for the next level!!

Recently encountered hard times for my work. I started to lose myself in the maze. What I should do to help ? Thought about it for nights, I found that my difficiencies are the most basic elements instead of the more elaborated skills which should be built on top of it, meaning I am quite unable to progress in this stage as my base isn't strong enough to do so. It is always difficult to be smart, or should be to smart out in situations. I will give myself time to strengthen myself bit by bit, day by day. Well, I got two more difficult tasks, ie. to look after little T and to comfort big I, aih... really hard job.

Today someone sent me my personality analysis basing on my sign. I thought about it for some time and find that actually I don't quite have a strong sense of personality. People say that I am a person that they find it comfortable to get along with, now I know the reason, that's because my existence is just like tides, come naturally, leave silently. No strong characters, no obvious personalities, perhaps I am moulded by sand, so loose, so soft... I find myself dissolving, will I lose myself one day? Or this is my distinct characters? I don't know.

呢隻就係小呆獸，每次在家裡因太累而發呆的時候，小弟弟就叫我小呆獸，當呆得利害，我會進化成大呆獸呢!!!


一些人在我的生活中遺失了，一些正在遺失... 一些在我的意識範圍中正在消失，一些在我不經意中失蹤了。無論是怎樣離開我的生活，怎樣在我的生命中留下一點點痕跡，我都不能很著實的把握，我是否擁有挽留的力量呢?

很舒服的一首歌

陰天 詞/李宗盛 曲/李宗盛.周國儀
陰天 在不開燈的房間
當所有思緒都一點一點沉澱
愛情究竟是精神鴉片
還是世紀末的無聊消遣
香煙 氳成一灘光圈
和他的照片就擺在手邊
傻傻兩個人 笑的多甜
開始總是分分鐘都妙不可言
都以為熱情它永不會滅
除了激情褪去後的那一點點倦
也許像誰說過的貪得無饜
活該應了誰說過的不知檢點 總之那幾年
感性贏了理性那一面
陰天 在不開燈的房間
當所有思緒都一點一點沉澱
愛恨情慾裡的疑點
盲點 呼之欲出 那麼明顯
女孩 通通讓到一邊
這歌裡的細微末節就算都體驗
若想真明白 真要好幾年
回想那一天 喧鬧的喜宴
耳邊響起的究竟是序曲 或完結篇?
感情不就是你情我願
最好愛恨扯平兩不相欠
感情說穿了 一人掙脫的 一人去撿
男人大可不必 百口莫辯
女人實在無須 楚楚可憐
總之那幾年 你們兩個沒有緣
陰天 在不開燈的房間
當所有思緒都一點一點沉澱
愛情終究是精神鴉片
還是世紀末的無聊消遣 香煙
氳成一灘光圈 和他的照片就擺在手邊
傻傻兩個人 笑的多甜